I'm listening to 'the Loaf'

So last night I had a bit of a breakdown.

Not the bad kind that requires medication...just the kind that requires tissues. I think it was a combination of signing the lease, which officially meant that I was never moving back home, Kingdom Bound stress, and talking to a few people over the past few days who I discovered I greatly miss. I had that moment when I realized that there are people I have come to rely on I won't see everyday anymore. And as much as I hate to say it....I kind of need them. That's what sucks the most about all this...being so far away from everyone. I'm 4 hours away from home, 4 and a half hours away from my other home and if I'm lucky I'll be able to get back there one or two times a year.

So yeah basically I miss my favorites.

And when did this crack in the armor decide to open up you ask? Try at the end of band practice. Claire brought me an iced cappuccino and I just started to lose whatever composure I usually have. And it was all done when someone asked if I was ok. That's when the tears started and I was crying. I pulled it together pretty quickly though...so I managed to maintain so dignity. Just a little. I hate it when I'm that crying girl. gah.

Ah well....we got a lot done today as far as KB is concerned. Now all that really needs to get done is food shopping and random crap shopping and t-shirts. And with the grace of God it shall all get done.

OH! And I talked to Matt for a couple hours last night....which was absolutely fabulous. I love that kid - he kindda makes my day. It was great to talk to him. That was the first real conversation we had since he got home. But now because he has to go and have a real life he may not be able to come to KB and see me. So help me if I have to wait until September to see this kid I may freak out.